A void in my heart. Deep, vast. I can barely breathe. Freeze. I cannot move. Tears falling down my cheeks. I hurt him, so he closed down. Distance. Will he ever open up again? I feel scared. I feel scared.
Distance
July 11, 2023
Tag: Poem
Gone
April 15, 2023
You're gone anew. Tell me. Where are you going, when you leave? Are you coming back? I never know. I never know. Oh! You are back! You are, right? Say, you aren't leaving again, are you? You are here, you say. But for how long? In a blink of an eye, you left again. Are you coming back? I never know. I never know. As I await your return.
Love
January 19, 2023
Say, my beloved, Do I love you? Do I truly love you? My dear friend, tell me: What is love? What does that word mean? What does it mean to love? I love you... I love you. Is that love? Is saying that to love? What I know is, I miss you. I miss you like no one else. I miss you every day. What I know is, I'm longing for you. I long to hear you voice again. I long to see your smile once more. I long to feel your hand in mine. What I know is, That I trust you. I trust you more than anyone on this planet. What I know is, That I know you. I know your heart, gently beating in your chest. What I know is, That I feel you, no matter how far apart. What I know is, That you are with me every step of the way. What I know is, That we are connected throughout worlds and dimensions. Throughout every single star shining in the cosmos. With that, I can truly say: I love you.
My Precious Beloved
December 28, 2022
Where are you? I am longing for you. Where are you? I feel you somewhere inside of me. I feel you everyday. But who are you? Did we ever meet before? We did. Yes, we did! It feels like we know each other for so long. You are my closest friend. My dear brother. My precious beloved. And yet, I don't remember your face. Who are you? My love, that I feel everyday. I am longing to see you. I am yearning to touch you once again. My loved brother. Where are you? I feel you. Yet, you aren't here. My friend from the farthest past. I need your presence. I'm seeking your gentle eyes. I'm looking for you kind smile. Tell me, my other whole. Where do I find you? Where do I trace your heart? My closest friend. My dear brother. My precious beloved. I feel lost without you in this strange world. Tell me. Where do I find you? When can I look into your soft eyes again. When can I see your gentle smile once more. I'm looking forward for that time to come. Until we meet again, my dear friend.
Darkness
December 27, 2022
What is this place? It's dark. Dark. Hey! Do you know where I am? No answer to hear... Silence. Utter, empty silence. Breathe. I have to breathe. Going forward in darkness. Every breath feels heavy. But I have to breathe. Breathe. And another step forward. Forward. In darkness.
Snow
December 26, 2022
Snow. White, cold, snow. A field with colorful flowers. But now, there is only this white, cold substance. Cold indeed. Freezing cold. Nothing is thriving at this moment. Nothing is growing. Only the cold. No living thing in sight. No plant. No animal. No human. Only that white, freezing cold snow. Only snow.